The Bond… THAT Bond…!

Sincerity is so unbelievably rare…!

Leave alone judging… it is just too difficult to understand people to begin with…!

To be honest and let them know? Or to lie to keep them happy?

When you are completely aware that 1 sentence spoken can shake their entire being… what would you choose to do…?

Words are my best friend… because they listen to me… quietly…. Acceptingly..!

Sometimes… you don’t need anyone to solve your problem…

Sometimes… you just need someone to willingly listen to what you have to say…

Without judging… without being opinionated….!

What defines a friend…?

It is always the quality of time spent together… not the quantity… for sure!

Someone who will cheer you up no matter how badly it has rained on you…

Someone who always gets you to notice the sunshine…

Someone who is just a call away… that bond is so unbelievably rare!

So hopelessly uncommon.

Hollow Feelings… Shallow Words…

The time spent together just turns into distant.. faded.. memories…  live them through as much as u want in your mind… its something that is never coming back.. ever…!

Forgive and forget… just sounds simple… but is it really possible… to forget what you’ve gone through..?

They say you learn from your experiences… which indirectly means… you don’t ever forget right…?

Is it ok to let your past experiences reflect on or influence your current thoughts…?

Is it normal..?

Is this how it is supposed to be…?

Words said in anger… are words just blurted out without any meaning… or are they the actual thoughts of a person…?

No matter how hard you try to let go… you still remember right…? Is that referred to as being stuck up…?

You may WANT to remember the 100 good times that you shared.. but sometimes… the one extremely bad thing that happened washes it all away…

Its just a bad … sad… phase.. maybe… but its surely difficult to overcome it…

Trying to focus all your positivity towards letting it go .. just doesn’t work all the time right…?

You just end up feeling that you’ve been trying to think positive and hoping for a happy ending for no apparently logical reason…

How long are you expected… to hold on…?

To be positive…?

To be nice…?

How long…? When will I ever ‘actually’ feel positive…?

Why do I always have to force myself to be positive…?

EXPECTATIONS – good or bad…? Just pure pressure…!

Your outlook means so many different things to different people…

Living up to them is not always easy…

And sometimes … or rather most of the times.. it just changes and/or alters the person you truly are…

Ever felt like you expected something from someone… maybe a particular level of understanding… and that person just completely overshadows your point of view…?

NEGATIVITY – all around me… and what happens when the people I care about start to sulk as well…

Any which ways… I just end up PRETENDING to be happy… just to see them smile…

Hollow feelings….!

Shallow words…!

Pointless arguments… without a sensible beginning or a definite end…

They say… God never burdens you more than what you can stand…

Did God .. by any chance… over estimate my strength…?

I hope not…!

I pray not…!

LUCK… does that word even have a real meaning…?! I don’t think so any longer…

God Bless..!

Going Cuckoo

Today… I am going to be direct without direction, and will be speaking without specification…

Don’t get my point?

I don’t either…!

They say no one is perfect…

How can that be?

God created us…

God is perfect… he doesn’t make mistakes…

So… he couldn’t have made a mistake while making us right?

Does that mean we are perfect the way we are?

If so… then why are some of us discontented with ourselves?

OMG… if we are where we are supposed to be… and if we are doing what god intends us to do… then do we really have to worry about any thing?

I mean… god has already pre planned our lives right?

So… what do we do now?

Just go with the flow?

(I kno this seems like a really random / vague topic to discuss out here… but what the hell… freedom of press is what I am going to call it! *winks*)

So… if my soul mate is out there some where… and if god intends for us to be together … no matter how horribly I behave with him… he’ll still always be there for me…? Now thats a relief!

They talk about freedom… but where’s the freedom if god gets to decide for us?

(This post does not intend to offend any religious beliefs… its just food for thought!)

We could go on and on forever about such vague things…

There isn’t a possible definite conclusion to any of this…

Why I wrote about all this today?

Uh… I don’t know… who cares…

You ended up reading it to the end anyways… haha…

I feel low… but I don’t know why…

Have you ever felt this way?

You just know there is something wrong about this day…

But you just can’t point a finger at it …

There has been a lot going on with me recently…

Maybe it’s because I miss some of my friends (Tj and G3)

Maybe it’s because I don’t turn 18 until next year… (Oh I HATE this one)

Maybe it’s because I dint like what I had for lunch today…

Maybe I woke up on the wrong side of the bed today…

Maybe…

Hey! Wait…! There is only 1 side to my bed… there is a solid wall on the other side!!  =___=

I am losing it…

I guess this day is doomed to be overshadowed by the thick dark clouds of uncertainty …

Thick dark PURPLE clouds… I like purple!

I know what you are thinking… you probably never want to read my blog posts ever again…

Well… boo hoo for you!

I write to feel better… and it sure helps…!

I think it’s going to take a while longer for those purple clouds to go away…

But I wish all my readers a HAPPIER day!

(Happier as compared to mine… so… that could mean a little or a lot!!)

The Change

It’s a brand new day…

And it’s such a drastic change…

1. From mommy waking me up in the morning to get dressed for school… to me setting my own alarm clock and waking up at the first ring…
2. From waiting for the school bus… to rushing to take the earliest possible metro…
3. From waiting for recess at school… to forgetting to eat because of the work load…

I know I sound like a 40- something analyzing my lifestyle and missing my childhood…

But… I have realized… you don’t have to be 40 to feel the difference…

I’m not even a graduate yet… I have recently completed my high school studies… and had the chance to do a summer job…

Most of my days were spent missing just being around friends… seeing each and EVERY ONE of them EVERY morning! (Even the ones I dint like that much!)

I used to start working on my school assignments the same day that they had to be submitted…

Or… even better… I used to copy most of them from my classmates!!

I never even thought about it twice!

And now… since I am working… I HAVE to do whatever I am asked to do…

I can’t postpone any of it…!!

There are situations when I feel lost… and I don’t know what to do …

But I don’t have the option to turn back and check with a friend how to go about it…

NO… I’m not being tortured by my boss… he is pretty helpful actually… but then… it’s just “not the same anymore… “

And when I make the same statement in front of my parents… they go like… “What did you expect?”

I don’t know… I don’t know what I expected… really…

Oh and I have lost count of all the embarrassing moments I have had! =_=

1. I had to call an elevator contractor named: “Su Kim” … and I asked for Ms. Su Kim… And later found out it was a Mr. Su Kim
2. There can be names like “Nacho” and “Cholo”
3. People shriek like maniacs if there is jalapeno in their subway sandwich!
4. If a coworker orders cake for his birthday… there are people who will fight for the canned cherry topping!

Those are just a few…

All in all … it isn’t such a bad experience actually… not bad at all…

1. I was the youngest intern… so I get treated extra nicely… !
2. I get paid even for weekends…
3. The feeling that money earned with hard work give you is… irreplaceable!
4. The joy of being “INDEPENDENT”
5. Adding to your pocket money without having to explain to your dad why you need an allowance raise…!

Just feels so good!

I miss school… but I am happy doing what I do as of now…

Collogues can never replace classmates…

Tea break can never replace recess…

Overtime can never replace detention…

But we don’t really have a choice here…

Like any other person out there…

I wanted to be a “grown up” when I was younger…

And now… I want to go out in the evenings and play hop scotch!

There are as many positives as there are negatives…

And I don’t know if I have really come to terms with this change…

I don’t know if I ever will…

But I don’t intend to give up…

I always have and always will enjoy every new sunshine filled morning…!

Life always gives you challenges right?

I intend to overcome each and every one of them with a smile… =)

I Don’t Know …

I don’t know…

What do you really mean when you say that…?

Earlier People used it as a answer for question they really dint know about…

Like if someone asked me… what is the diameter of the earth?

I would try thinking about it for a minute or two then just shrug my shoulders resort to saying

“I don’t know”  … because I don’t…

But not any more… now… it wouldn’t really think for those two minutes… I would just google the earth’s diameter…

Googling… the god of new age…

There’s nothing it doesn’t know…

It over flows with facts and latest news from around the world…

But recently… the internet has gone a step further and provides you with loads of self help articles too…

Whether you need help using a software or you need help asking out the love of your life

It knows everything… you have a problem… google it… there are probably a million people out there who have come across the same issue … solved it… and then written articles about it to be posted on the net so that it is available to all the other helpless souls out there…

awww… how sweet…

yea right…

I  would have humble answered the question stating the I don’t know the diameter or the  earth… and then maybe asked another person if they knew the answer to it… or maybe flipped through a geography book to find out for myself…

But no… since I am served the answer within seconds… I can boast that there isn’t a thing I can’t possibly know… or rather there isn’t possibly any thing I cant find out in seconds

This isn’t truly being smart…  but then again… what exactly is “being smart”

Does being smart mean having a super fast internet connection so that you can google stuff… or does being smart mean having a parrot like memorizing capacity… hm… I don’t know…

I am going to have to google the meaning of being smart now… haha…

The irony of it all…

Blog… Sleep… Blog… Eat… Blog… Pee… Blog…

A professional blogger is a full time blogger. He/she blogs for a living. The blogs are limited to posts about professional topics and the person keeps away from writing personal stuff.

A typical professional blogger will begin his by checking e- mails, replying to them and checking whether anyone has linked up to his blog via trackbacks. He will then go on to check the last night’s comments and reply to EACH and EVERY one of them. He will keep checking his income and blog traffic obsessively throughout the day. He will then think of a couple of ideas and start posting his first story for the day. He may then take a nap, join clubs, post “interesting” links, pee, puke… whatever… then write another post and call it a day.

Disclaimer: Typical days might differ from geek blogger to geek blogger! =_=

Just typing that bored me to death!!

I mean seriously… imagine a life like that.

Okay… fine… some people earn well from it… but it does sound like a really monotonous life you know!

These ProBloggers earn through strategically placed ads on their blogs in tune with the nature of their blog topic.

I may be classified as a rookie blogger…. But I can’t imagine writing about one particular topic everyday of my life.

Like I was told… a media planner can write a blog on advertising trends, a market professional on market research, IT student can start a technology blog … etc…

I agree with the following statement :

“You are your own learner and the internet is your teacher”

But professional blogging is not how I’d like to apply it.

For those of you keen on giving it a try… here’s a little something for you:

Amit Agarwal is one of India’s first Professional Blogger. He runs his blog “Digital Inspiration” www.labnol.org where he writes about personal technology, web- based consumer gadgets and the like.

The Asian College of Journalism, Chennai offers a postgraduate diploma in New Media.

The Indian Institute of New Media and Journalism offers a graduate and postgraduate diploma in New media.

Check: www.iijnm.org

And then there is this guy… who has recently been getting great coverage in Indian magazines and newspapers.

Name: Mohnish Nagpal

Age: 18

Interest: advising millions of readers through his blog on the topic “Blogging for money”

Link: www.sensonize.com

He says he stumbled into the world of blogging at the age of 13.

I’m not sure if I knew what blogging meant at that age…. Hm…

I sound so awkwardly professional today… don’t I?

I must be sick…

this picture disgusts me... don't know why...

Cookie Monster always tell me I write too formally… guess she hasn’t read a professional blog yet